I feel have neglected my thoughts.
It is hard to believe it has been a year since my last post.
The last year has been good for the most part.
I guess I am getting better at pushing those sad moments from my days.
They are there, but I am choosing to keep the happy memories with me daily. I try to combat the masses of darkness by surrounding them with the light. The memories that make me smile or chuckle silently. Sometimes I even share and we all laugh.
I think that is important too . Share the happy memories too. Maybe that has helped our friends and neighbors are be more comfortable sharing their memories with us. It really helps my heart to know they haven't forgotten. They do think about her too.
We celebrated Bitsy's 21st birthday with our family of friends. Friends that have been there more than family. Our family is so spread out we have made our own family here close to us. And they have been a wonderful support system. Always there to listen, no words needed. There to cry with us and not be afraid to let it show.
Don't we all wish there were magic words. Words of wisdom that would instantly stop the pain, for ourselves or for others.
There are no magic words. Nothing really dulls the pain. It does get easier. But the pain is always there, waiting like a vulture. Waiting to attack when it senses weakness, when you least expect it.
With the New Year come hopes, plans, and dreams of doing things the way we feel we "should". Things we think will make our life easier or happier. Things that will change our daily routine to make us healthier. Eat less, exercise more, have more patience, keep my house cleaner and accumulate less clutter.
All of these things are nice . All of these things might make every day a bit less stressful for most.
This year I will write more, It really feels good to my heart. I will cherish my family even more. I will share the love and joy I find in every day with all that I can. I will show more compassion and help my girls be more compassionate too. I will pay it forward and do those random kind things. I will help more total strangers in their struggles. I will show those around me that love is all around us if we open our eyes.
Yes my resolutions include the typical, more Yoga, more exercise, eat healthier, cook healthier, less clutter, save more$$, more organization...
The list could go on and on...
But when you commit to make these changes remember our family and remember life is a gift to be cherished, not taken for granted.
Consider your choices. How will the effect those around me? How will they make the life of someone besides mine better? Does this say to those around me what I want it to? Am I being truly compassionate in this?
The shooting at Sandy Hook breaks everyones heart. The pain of losing a child is like no other. My heart goes out to all those families. Let that encourage you to make the positive changes in your life today.
I believe most people are truly good at heart. Maybe I am naive, but thats what I believe. I also know it is much harder to do the right thing. It is much easier to follow the crowd. Most of us at one time or another have witnessed something we could have dramatically changed the outcome of with just a few words. Don't take the easy road and follow the crowd, or look the other way. Be the one that changes things. Stand up for what is right.
Once you stand up for the weaker one once you will do it again. And hopefully they will have a chance to stand up for someone too. Helping others is the closest thing to magic words or wisdom for pain. Reach out to help those around you and your heart heals bit by bit.
All I ask is that you think about it.
Is this your last chance?
4 years ago today you beat the beast called Slivia(aka cancer). You escaped it's terribly painful clutches.
You were set free.
Free to discover all the wonders we here bound to Earth cannot even begin to understand.
The Earth is a much darker, bleaker place without your beautiful soul.
We know you are better and happy you no longer have to struggle for each and every moment. We know you are here with us and will not forget. Our hearts struggle with the dark sorrow each and everyday. Oh, for one more hug or kiss. Just to hear your voice...
Rest in peace sweet Angel Bitsy
Peace and Light to you all,
Amy
It is hard to believe it has been a year since my last post.
The last year has been good for the most part.
I guess I am getting better at pushing those sad moments from my days.
They are there, but I am choosing to keep the happy memories with me daily. I try to combat the masses of darkness by surrounding them with the light. The memories that make me smile or chuckle silently. Sometimes I even share and we all laugh.
I think that is important too . Share the happy memories too. Maybe that has helped our friends and neighbors are be more comfortable sharing their memories with us. It really helps my heart to know they haven't forgotten. They do think about her too.
We celebrated Bitsy's 21st birthday with our family of friends. Friends that have been there more than family. Our family is so spread out we have made our own family here close to us. And they have been a wonderful support system. Always there to listen, no words needed. There to cry with us and not be afraid to let it show.
Don't we all wish there were magic words. Words of wisdom that would instantly stop the pain, for ourselves or for others.
There are no magic words. Nothing really dulls the pain. It does get easier. But the pain is always there, waiting like a vulture. Waiting to attack when it senses weakness, when you least expect it.
With the New Year come hopes, plans, and dreams of doing things the way we feel we "should". Things we think will make our life easier or happier. Things that will change our daily routine to make us healthier. Eat less, exercise more, have more patience, keep my house cleaner and accumulate less clutter.
All of these things are nice . All of these things might make every day a bit less stressful for most.
This year I will write more, It really feels good to my heart. I will cherish my family even more. I will share the love and joy I find in every day with all that I can. I will show more compassion and help my girls be more compassionate too. I will pay it forward and do those random kind things. I will help more total strangers in their struggles. I will show those around me that love is all around us if we open our eyes.
Yes my resolutions include the typical, more Yoga, more exercise, eat healthier, cook healthier, less clutter, save more$$, more organization...
The list could go on and on...
But when you commit to make these changes remember our family and remember life is a gift to be cherished, not taken for granted.
Consider your choices. How will the effect those around me? How will they make the life of someone besides mine better? Does this say to those around me what I want it to? Am I being truly compassionate in this?
The shooting at Sandy Hook breaks everyones heart. The pain of losing a child is like no other. My heart goes out to all those families. Let that encourage you to make the positive changes in your life today.
I believe most people are truly good at heart. Maybe I am naive, but thats what I believe. I also know it is much harder to do the right thing. It is much easier to follow the crowd. Most of us at one time or another have witnessed something we could have dramatically changed the outcome of with just a few words. Don't take the easy road and follow the crowd, or look the other way. Be the one that changes things. Stand up for what is right.
Once you stand up for the weaker one once you will do it again. And hopefully they will have a chance to stand up for someone too. Helping others is the closest thing to magic words or wisdom for pain. Reach out to help those around you and your heart heals bit by bit.
All I ask is that you think about it.
Is this your last chance?
4 years ago today you beat the beast called Slivia(aka cancer). You escaped it's terribly painful clutches.
You were set free.
Free to discover all the wonders we here bound to Earth cannot even begin to understand.
The Earth is a much darker, bleaker place without your beautiful soul.
We know you are better and happy you no longer have to struggle for each and every moment. We know you are here with us and will not forget. Our hearts struggle with the dark sorrow each and everyday. Oh, for one more hug or kiss. Just to hear your voice...
Rest in peace sweet Angel Bitsy
Peace and Light to you all,
Amy
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